some of what i think about

2003-11-05T21:33:00.000+03:00

ha its me again
i have done it again i have lost focus and statred looking at life negatively its so easy to do and so hard to stop
well i spend all my money again i know stupid me
but i did get something good out of it this time
i had a friend of mine build me a computer so i well have a new way to waste my time and my life and something new lying around to realy piss me off
i have am getting all my stuff back tomorow so thats a good thing out of storage from the deployment and i now have my car back so i am moble again

i have been discovering that when i spend all my money that i have a tendence to get depressed easer and for me thats pretty easy to do for me
so i well have to remeber that next month

i realy do not feel good phyiscal or mentaly
i still get sick in my stomach rideing in cars from motion sickness
i chip a tooth today dont know how all of a sudden my tooth started to decay
i have to realy refocus on one thing at a time
the showers in my new building are not that great the water is so hot its stupid hot it takes for ecver to get it just warm and the shower heads arent good either its just all around bad thats makes life worse cause have you ever noticed that a good shower well make you feel better
well i am not even doing personal hygienn that much so that is making me more depressed i am sinking fast here fokes
i well say it again i need to concentrat on doing the small things and one thing at a time or else i am never going to see the sun rising on my life
help HELP help
on the good side i have all my old bills paid so that a goood thing i haveny made new ones so this is a reall good thing

2003-11-03T16:01:00.000+03:00

well i am back in germany now
i want to do some more posting but life is a mess right now physicaly and mentaly
right now i have to get up from here and go do somepaper work that needs to be done in a couple of hours
see yea

2003-10-25T00:50:00.000+03:00

well i lost control for a few seconds yesterday i went the hell of on this guy dont get me wrong this guys a ass but i went off on him when i shouldnt of it wasnt a very pretty site
i am starting to loss control a little which isnt good i need to get the hell back to hanau so it can easy up a little but i really need to get the hell out cause i dont give a fuck any more and it is going to get me in trouble here real soon if i am not careful but thats the problem i dont give a fuck if i do get in trouble or not i might also get hurt cause i might go off on some guy then we start fighting and i would probable loss and get hurt but like i said i dont give a fuck any more i haven't for a couple of months now for real but it is starting to be more and more obvious
well since i am paying for this now i am going to go now see you later

2003-10-25T00:41:00.000+03:00

well we are now finshed with moving vehicales to the port YIPPIE
we put our names on a list for a flight 2 days ago i think so all we do now is wait a couple of dayz hopfully its less for our names to be on the top of the list but we have like 12 people maybe so we all have to fly together so that will make it a little harder to get a plane but it should be no longer then what i said

what is up with all this bitching about spam mail dont this idiots now how to not get it well let me say a thing or two
first of all when you create your account you have to say no that you do not want to be put in there phone book and two no you do not not promoinal offers i dont give a fuck if the company thinks they are valid or not
second threaten death to every one you know if they give your email account to any bussiness
third dont you give your account out to every yahoo on the net that wants to send you something
fourth have two accounts one you pay for like AOL or MSN and the second is free like at hotmail or yahoo and the free one is the one you give out to bussines that want a email addrses
this way when you go to the free email site you look only for the bussines name you gave the email to read it then delte the rest
if you follow this simple rules you well get very small amount of spam
pressto problem solved

2003-10-20T13:36:00.000+03:00

well i am happy to report that i am one step closer to leaving this missed up country
i have moved to the base with the airport on it and now i have to work for a couple of days then wait a couple of more days before i can fly back to germany yippie

2003-10-19T17:22:00.000+03:00

well i forgot to say that i found a good blog on weblog i liked it it is called angelic warrior you should check him out

remeber if you need to get a hold of a good basic web site good to crosswalk

well that is it i am going to go and eat then i might be back if there is some thing that is just to good not to report here

2003-10-19T16:51:00.000+03:00

here is some of what i was going to tell you or time permiting all of it lets start with what really pissed me off when i read it this is taken from stars and strips and for those of you not familar with it, it is a daily newspaper that is the offical word of the milarty dated friday the 17th 2003 in the middle east edition it is the articale called the many dispartities of life in iraq on page four it says " "its pretty obvious" Mac-Donald said "not every one can have a place like this " [refering to the palace mwr complex in tikrit] --a fact that some field officers say they try to keep there troops from seeing [a fieled officer is i think a major or higher] the next paragraph says "i dont want my soliders coming up here"said one senior commander in the 101st air born division surveying the swimming pool at the "screaming eagles" [a nick name for the 10st air born division] head quarters at a palace in mosul "i dont want them to see how good the division staff has it"

this is a bunch of bullshit the army only has a few of the mwr facilitys were soliders can go and relax and as you can see the chain of command [army manegmeant] does even want there soliders to be able to use them if thier there this is bullshit casue i can gurante you that the generals have video confernce with there family every night i can say this cause i was there
i went through the newspaper and circled about half of the dam thing that pissed me off but i would be here all day with how slow i type so i well only give one or two things

on a good note here is one
same date as above page 6 at a a base called q west affes has not reached there yet [affes is a army retail store] so what the chain of command has allowed is for the soliders to volunter there time [and they bring a semi trailer to a px and buy stuff to fill it up and them drive the semi truck back to the base so the soliders well have the basics to buy] and has allowed local vendors on to the base to sell there goods to soliders
the [ ] marks means the articale didnt say this but because i was there on the ground i know how the system works
this is a very good chain of command and they should be praised for looking out for there soliders moral thank you

another strange but typical thing is also from the same paper same date and same page a fourth ID soliders were given a A/C unit but did not have the power to run it so it just sets outside there tent this was on camp pack horse south tikrit

one more story is from the same date same paper on page 9
the emional high is two fold right now said capt ed gawlik commander of the 68th transpertaion company as he dismissed the soliders it's great that everyone has returned to there familys but it's sad that the time we spent together down there is over
well mr company commander man what the hell are you saying if you like it so much stay there but let your troops leave cause they dont want to be there so f*** that

well i could go on all day like this but there are other things i want to do i am sure there is something in todays paper that is bad to but i well limit it to a couple of things instead of wanting to say something about the whole paper

i well say this though about the natinal guard and reserve they are getting screwed cause they aint got the political power that the regular army does
but think about this we the active amy are doing more tours then you are we are pulled out of one tour to get ready to go on another and that aint no joke folkes

about the WMD i am sure that iraq has them but i am not that sure that they have a WMD programe which means they develop there own weapons in there own country
lets think about this people it would be easy to move a couple of nukes around so the inspecters could not find them

you know what i think is realy funny about the box cutter getting on the airline is that we know have all this securiuty and they are still getting through ha ha ha this is some funny shit man
you know how easy it is to get some thing by a inspecter i should know i have been a searcher for people coming on to a army base for long a long time

well this has gotten long again so i well get out by hidden box knife and cut it short ha ha ha i just kill my self i am so funny
here is a stars and strips link

now about the beer drinking team i promised thought i had forget didnt you well you would be right but then i remeberd i have not gone there yet but here is the link www.usbdt.com
drink up and enjoy but be responable about it call a cab or get a non drinker to drive you home or to the next bar

2003-10-19T01:05:00.000+03:00

Hello my new old friend Mr blog
well as it is starting to turn out that i am spending time reading other people blogs instead of making my own i dont know if this is a good or bad thing but before i signed on and some times even when i dont signed on i look to the left to see what other blogs have been mad and i preview them or i go to weblog and i can be there for a long time i found out a little trick i found it by accident the way most tricks a discovered i have never signed on to weblog dont need to cause on the home page you right click the mouse and the close the menu and you have a couple of hundred web logs to chose from to read

well about the book delta force you can get it here avonbooks that takes you to harberbooks just type the name of the book into the search box on your upper right and your in business
but when i went there to see if my favorite book in the world out side of religious material that is was there sadly it was not but some of his other books were there and it mention the ones i liked they are

all i really need to know i learned in kindergarten---it was on fire when I layed down on it -----uh-oh------maybe maybe not

i think the reason why i like this books is the fact they are simple yet funny but yet real story's of course in the first book the author robert fulghum tells you that he takes creative license in rearranging some facts to make the story funnier when i first read the kindergarten book i couldnt put it down it was that good another reason it is so good is it is a bunch of short stories i have read the book so many times in sections i know most of the stories by heart
then he published the next book it was not that good it was called rituals from beginning to end he used the same method of writing as he did before but he is not a Christian but it did not matter that much with his previous books but in this one it really did and cause this book had a lot to do with religion i had read half of the book then said no more but then he redeemed him self with the next two books one is a story book of true love story's what he did was sat at a outside restaurant in seattle with a sign that said some thing like tell me a love story and people did as they did he wrote them down and put them together and made a book out of it i think it is called true love story's i read this whole book it was good the other is a collection of things he wishes he wrote i read part of this book but never bought it but is was good i well by it some day and read the whole thing but as of now i dont recall the name of the book
well i have said a lot about these books cause the first four books he wrote has made a big impact on my life i am able to easily relax when i read them and that is not something i do easily these days/years so that is a good thing i would say

well you remember when i said my bible has quotes in it with pictures well here are the ones i like i brought my bible to get the quotes right "heaven is full of answers to prayers for which no one ever bothered to ask"billy grahm
"worship is in partlistening to what god might say to us, through music, through words, through fellowship, it is also our esponse to what he speaks. worship has occurred when life responds with a openness as to how good might change our lives " c. neil strait----the part in bold is what i like best
"a Christian should always remember that the value of his good works is not based on there number and excellence but on the love of god which promts him to do those things."saint john of the cross

heres some comedy for you all from the desert voice magazine
if nothing can stick to teflon how does it stick to the pan
if your vehicle could travel at the speed of light what would happen when you turn on your head lights
if the cops arrest a mime do they tell him he has the right to remain silent
why do they lock gas station bath rooms? are the affaid some one well clean them?
is it possible to be totally partial
if a parsley farmer is sued can they garnish his wages
how do they get a deer to cross at that yellow sign
why is it when you are driving and you are looking for a addresses you turn down the volume on the radio
i've been married 14 years thats like 100 in husband years

well i had planned on writing a piece on things i have seen in the newspaper but i did a lot of other stuff on the web before i started to blog and it is very late now so i should go and i also read on another blog about how blogs should not be so long and that made since to me so i well tell you about the stuff in the newspaper tomorrow like the new US beer drinking team no i am not kidding it really exist but you well have to tune in tomorrow at the same bat time and the same bat channel to find out more
peace.

2003-10-17T17:26:00.000+03:00

i am so bored i want to kill my self just so i would have some thing to do
not really i am bored but not suicidal (not yet at least)
i have had nothing to do for what seems like a decade and believe me the first week or two at the most can be fun but after that it is like i just want to scream
i have been reading a book called DELTA FORCE it is why and how delta force was created it is written by the founder of delta force Charles beckworth now i am not stupid and think every word of it is true given the topic secret kind of stuff it is talking about but the basics of it is true i am sure i do not read that many books and i read even less books of a military nature but this one is good i am almost done with it

2003-10-15T01:16:00.000+03:00

well i am back i never got up from the keyboard i decided to go to weblog to see if my blog was there cause i checked the box to have my blog pinged over to weblog but it wasnt there so ha whats up with that
any way i started to look around and i came onto a lesbian web site so i looked around it for a bit then they had a link to a preacher man web site that was for homosexual marriages i assume
well i know have a question that i have to find a answer for that is since we no longer follow the levitcal law of the old testament how come it is that we have pulled one law out of it and said you must follow this law
i mean do people keep the other levitcal laws i dont think so
there is laws concerning the Sabbath as what you can and can not do but do any Christians out there know what the Sabbath laws are or does any one even know what the rest of the levitcal laws are
before we start a national debate concerning one of the levitcal laws we better have done our home work and know what we are talking about
dont get me wrong i think that homosexuality is wrong
but i also believe you should hate the sin and help/love the sinner
but this is also a question that HAS TO ANSWERED for us to go any farther with this national debate

well i am going to go now and i really am going to be getting up from this seat cause it is way late and i have to get up in another couple of hours i had no idea it was this late
but first i am going back to check weblog to see if i was pinged over there yet then i am gone i promise

2003-10-14T23:29:00.000+03:00

well i have just spent a hell of a long time trying figure out how to acces my page (this one) from the web cause they said that you could and i finaly did it i had to play around and screw with stuff for awhile but then i figured out that to acces this page from the web you do not type in the whole title cause there are only some many charcter that the computer well allow so what it came out as was http://someofwhatithink.blogspot.com not http://someofwhatithinkabout.blogspot.com i also tried http://someofwhatith.blogspot.com cause that is how it appeard on the instruction page for my site
i am happy now

well i over heard to day at dinner that we have a date for leaveing here which is cool but if it was a couple of more days after that i would be getting paid for a another whole month for only a couple of dayz but what the hell i well be glad to get back to germany which is where i am home stationed for another couple of months

can you answer something for me how the hell did arnlod get elected to be gov. of cali when to my knowedge he only had one debate and dodged most of the political questions given him i mean i have nothing against arnoled but was he realy the best chose if i was running against him i would be think right about now that the people must realy hate me if they thought he could do better them me i mean come the hell on he has no political expernce what so ever a high schools student body presidint has more expernce then he did
but hell if he wants the job take i sure the hell wouldnt want it you get blammed for everything

well i was thinking today that i do not want to move back home to live with my mom not permentaly if i am there for a couple of months ok i mean i do love my mom and all but its the old thing that i want to make it on my on but that is going to mean that i am going to be living like a poor poor man i am depending on the money situation when i get out of the army going to be buying a pop up camper so then there is a posable that i would live in that but even thought the bathroom would be just alittle small but i would then have to decide if i would want to live with my mom or live in that
in life there are always chose's and some times there is no right or wrong chose its just a matter of what one preffers

well i was reading in a bible i got here in kuwait the bible has differnt spots in it where it has pictures and stuff with quets and one of them was on worshiping god this is not the whole thing cause i dont have it here with me right now but it went something like this worship is listening to god thourgh songs and words but it realy takes effect when your life has been changed by it and i agree with that -- that is for sure when you walk in gods will it is like being happy you dont think about being happy you just are and then one day you look back and you say to your self you know what i am happy that is the way it is with following gods will it takes just doing real simple things (but hard to do) but doing them daily and you begin to be happy
i have said that having sex before marriage is wrong in the past and it is but you could also relate this to a women taking birth control pills if she does a small thing daily then she can have all the sex she wants and not have to deal with the posableilty of a kid but she has to do the simple thing daily of the taking the pill
yes i am aware that i have a very weird sence of relating thing to one another but i am right you have to admit that

i am beginging to be worried cause i see a problem developing the problem is that i am begining to mix the letters of words up instead of typing " what" i will type "hwat" i have just noticed this here recently i dont think i have done this before i dont think that i have done this when i write with pen and paper

if any one is reading this that they should give there support to the web page crosswalk it is a good site one that i think people should use
the christian community needs to stick together a little more then we do--we do not do that good of a job supporting one another
well i cant think of any thing else i want to say so i well see you later alegater
of course within minutes of walking away i well have something that i thought why the hell didnt i say that on my blog but then it well have to what for another day unless it is just so good that i have to come back and type it in
but it is getting late and i think i am going to go and see if there is any thing intersting on the tv in the mwr tent
then go back to my tent and and go to sleep

why ooo why didnt i take the blue pill

2003-10-14T00:50:00.000+03:00

i wonder if a person that had a nice life no major problems or difficulties would ever even get close to there true potenial
it is like a old star trek classic show the one where capt. kirk was captured and brought to a place where they would give him every thing he ever wanted but he could never leave he would always be a prisioner he told them that humans needed problems to over come in order to live and funchion i am starting to under stand this more we have to be at least a little messed up to be happy if things are to perfect we suspect something is wrong or we are never pushed to be better

2003-10-13T21:47:00.000+03:00

you should check out the baby blue comic today it is pretty funny
i have figured out that the time stamp on my logs are not right the day is though
well i have all ready typed this once before but it got lost some how i hate have to retype cause it is alot better the first time then the second so screw it i aint retyping those thoughs well have to come out another day

abc 123 gummy bears are chasing me some are red some are blue oh no the yellow one just ate my shoe

we had steak tonight for dinner ate the chow hall
if you remeber that you are in kuwait the food can be pretty good

why o why didnt i take the blue pill

2003-10-13T15:05:00.000+03:00

these are a few links that are worth looking at
crosswalk is a site that has a lot of things on it it is a christian based web site but dont judge it before you try it
cornerstone is another christian based web site but it is a little more muature but still a good look
glenn kasier is the front man-singer for rez band-music to raise the dead-it has alot of stuff on it ---he has a web blog you can acces --pastorial stuff music stuff all around general reading stuff

2003-10-13T14:28:00.000+03:00

hello well i thought i would give this a try so if i screw this thing up you well have to remeber that i am a newbie here so cut me some slack
a little bit about me to start this thing with
i am white man in my mid thirtys
i am in the army for about another 6 months or so
i well have been in the army for close to ten years at the end of this contract (army)
i have never been married
i am a hedersexual male
i am a christian
you show it to me in the bible and if you are not talking the bible out of context i well beleive you type of guy

well where should i began i have been around computers for a long time my dad was a computer programmer at the start of the computer age i am at the very start before there where that many programers out there he was working at a garage i think doing janitoral and a memo came down from the coporate office saying that the garage had to send some one to a computer programer school and that the company was going to pay for it so he volunterd and he stayed in the programing field ever since well i was a typical all american boy i loved my country and and apple pie too so i also wanted to do what my dad did and as it turned the more i did on computers the more i found that i have a natural talend for computers

well they say that if you talk about or write down and reread what you are feeling then it helps to clear up what you realy want or how you reaky feel so that is what thisis going to be all about

well right now i am at the end of a deployment to iraq 8 months maybe going into the ninth before i fly outa here so i am sitting in kuwait with not that much to do

i am all mixed up on the in side of me no its not cause i saw bloody bodys and shit cauze i didnt we did come under attack almost ever day though but they coulnt fight there way out of a wet paper bag (iraq miltia) i was lucky enough to get out of iraq right as thet began to ger orgainzed so we were worried but not that much
have you ever found your self doing all the wrongs things but did them any wayz and knew that you were messing up your life well thats the where i am right now
i know that if i did all the small things like laundry and keeping my area clean and orgainzed that i would be happier
i knew that if i read my bible daily and guy to church when i can that i well be a happier person
i know that if i put my mind on the things of crist i well be happier
but you know i do not do this stuff very often so them i am more vunerable to spirtual attacks
i am a normale american christian guy so that means that the number one area i struggle with (sin) is in the area of sex or things of a sexualy nature and more specifiacly thoughts of a sexual nature